LIVING OUTSIDE OF THE BUBBLE

I am a rule follower. Not that I have been a perfect person.....But I like rules. If you do this, then this will happen and you are safe and you are promised this and you have direction.....and your life will be this....Well that is the bubble that I "thought" was gonna be my little life...crossing my I's dotting my T's. Well Heavenly Father has a different life for me. He wants me to have trials. He wants me to be humble. He wants me to have faith. He wants me to live outside of the bubble. I have had slap you in the face wake up moments that have burst that bubble and now I am living outside of the bubble. Just when you think you get an understanding of something then another slap...In moses 1:10 is says , "It came to pass that is was far the space of many hours before Moses did again receive his natural strength like unto man: and he said unto himself: Now, for this cause I know that man is nothing, which thing I never had supposed" When I myslef realized I am nothing without God I began to understand more, not completely, but my dependence and strength that I need from him to accomplish this life of trials. To let go of pride and seek humility... In Alma 26: 11-12 is says, " Yeah, I know that I am nothing: as to my strength I am weak: therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things". I am grateful for my trials...without them I would not be able to let go of pride and seek humility and in return develop a closer relationship with my Heavenly Father . Liek Nephi stated in 2 Nephi 4:18-21 : " I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the sins which do so easily beset me. "and when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my sins: nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted. " My God hath been my support: he hath led me through mine afflections in the wilderness: and he hath preserved me upon the waters of the great deep. "He hath filled me with his love, even unto the consuming of my flesh".

ANNOYED

Do you ever wake up and your just annoyed? I do. Today is one of those days. Ok, I might as well get it off of my chest...so maybe the "annoyed" status will fade away into the darkness. I am annoyed at me..annoyed at my lack of progress. I want to make every day count (thats what I told my son to do yesterday). Moving forward each day with a goal in mind. I talked to my father in law some time ago and we were talking about this earth life and what is the most challenging for us. He said for him it was just co-existing and getting along with other people and thier views, opinions, habits and such. I thought about it for a minute and I totally agreed. I dream about being in a state of peaceful bliss where people do not effect me...that I can go on in my daily life and not be derailed by someone else. It is not possible. I have tried. It is just not possible. So should I bouy myself up once again and believe IT IS POSSIBLE? Or do I remain in this ever constant state of eradic-unpredictable-chaotic world?

AM I REALLY FORTY SEVEN?

I heard it all my life..."Your as young as you feel". I look in the mirror and think, " is that really me?" When did I get that old? I watch my children go through certain situations and think, "was it really that long ago for me?" Life travels way faster than my mind does for sure. I really still think I am young. Of course my children don't. Ha. I used to think I need to try to look younger and be up with the times...looking at the youth and wishing I still "looked" that young. But I have matured in this area and think, " Those young people better hope they look as good as I do at my ripe old age of 47"! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA